Patience is key

[addie]

Stella, Ping, Eagle,
I agree that H is reaching out however, each time he does, he withdraws right back into his tunnel for a while. I don't think I sounded needy in my reply. In fact, I wonder if I was a bit distant.

Here are some of the things I wrote:

-I appreciate you communicating your thoughts.
-I realize you don't want to hurt me and for that I am grateful
-I am sorry you are living with this confusion
-Although the last few months have been very painful for me, I realize that you have also endured much pain. I am on my path towards healing and finding my inner peace
-You asked if I could forgive you. In time yes. Forgiveness will be the ultimate gift I give to myself (right from Michelle). The alternative would be to harbor feelings of anger and resentment and I will not live like that.
-Will I ever forget what has happened? No, but I know I will learn from this and move forward.
-As far as your comment about things being stale - good marriages don't just happen, they take a lot of hard work.
"The grass is only greener where you water it" (I've seen this statement many times on this bb and thought I would give him some food for thought).
-I suppose we have both taken each other for granted.
-It's important to keep the lines of communication open, if only for S11's sake.

I thought I would be honest with some things. There comes a time when things must be talked about. I am tired of burying all my feelings. I don't think I pushed it.