Patrick, I can relate completely. I will say "giving it over to God" is not a one time thing, i.e. you do it once and then you walk away from bearing the pain and responsibility. It is a day-to-day thing and it gets easier.
And, your last sentence is a resounding agreement by me that I do not like going to bed alone. It will have been 18 years for me this year.
Hang in there buddy. Do not lose faith. It is worth it.
Me:56, W:51 D:26,S:24,S:22 Married:18 Bomb 9/27/06 Separated 11/27/06 Divorced 10/6/08 Leaving it up to God
