For the guys with kids and a WAW

[hopeful4her]

I love sleeping with WW next to me, again. I have told her before that I just can't sleep right without us somehow touching. Doesn't matter what it is. Elbows, shoulders, knees, foot. I hate that I need this, but I'll take what I can. The funny thing is, I still can't sleep, because I wake up in the middle of the night to enjoy the touch. I am crazy.
Sometimes in the middle of the night, she'll stretch out and she'll lay her hand on my face. It has happened a few times. Once, she was feeling my face in her sleep. I mean really feeling it. Another time she was doing it again, and then she stuck her finger in my nose! She used to do this to me in the car while I drove. Her funny little sign of affection. I know it sounds gross. Not like she was digging, but it is strange the things you miss.

Trying to figure out if I should go back to giving her a kiss on the cheek and a hug when I leave in the morning. I really want to, but I also want to make sure that I keep my boundaries. Also, the kids are going to spend the night at grandma and grandpa's on Thursday night. I'm debating doing something that night and wanting to invite WW out with me. It is Fiesta time in San Antonio and lots of things to do. I desperatly want to try to reconnect with her. Haven't been doing any snooping. Just been trying to enjoy the time that we spend together. Clear headed. Snooping kills me.

In my mind, I tell myself that she is still seeing and contacting OM. I have believed that this has been an EA, but the arguement that we had back on the 11th(I think), I said to her, "You cheated on me!" to which she replied, "Yes, I did." I took that to mean that she has slept with him, but not to clear. I hope and pray she hasn't, but I'll expect the worst. I hope and pray that it is still an EA.

Advice for me on the hugs and kiss?