well, Ihad a big db backslide yesterday. h and I had heated email exchanges with threats and him telling me that "I've never been happier", you get the drift.
Why Oh Why did I go there??? I'm trying to db for myself and it's easier that he's not here, but there will always be contact because of d and I can't believe he is doing this to our family and I'm still so angry and hurt. If you would have told me 3 months ago that he was even capable of doing this, I wouldn't have believed you.
also, child protective services was called because of D5's behaviorin daycare. crying, sucking her thumb, etc. I was totally cooperative and they went through the house, called people who know us and so far it's "unfounded", but it was terrifying! I'm furious because her behavior started when h started this crap. her teachers, principal and everyone knows this.
anyway, another day to get through. I only cried twice yesterday. Ithink part of MY db'ing is I have to accept that he really is in love with ow and isn't coming home. GAL for me.
