Up early, a good night's sleep being pretty elusive these days, and thought I would catch up a little on things.
My trip with S18 to IA this weekend was pretty good...his visit to the college was a bit of a mixed bag, so there's still no decision made there yet on his part. As for H, still nary a blink as to the affordibility of all this. As I said earlier, I've made the decision to keep my lip buttoned on this; let him explain it, as well as figure out how to finance it, later.
Being still (which is certainly how I view myself right now) is getting harder for me right now. I find myself still struggling with snooping...wish there were a way to distinguish between useful info (about actual plans) versus just the stuff between them that turns my stomache.
I guess I really need to just stop, and let what's coming just come as it may. Hard to let go of that bit of control, though...of trying to be prepared, emotionally and mentally, for what's ahead.
In IC on Monday, letting some more of my anger about this bubble up...also good to have an outlet there.
I'm rambling...maybe I can coax a little more sleep before the real wakeup time.
