OMG Here we go again!! What Have I Done??

[water2moon]

Well here is the latest..As usual I am not good at the Whole DB thing..I have a fiery temper and I'm tired of taking the crap that H keeps dishing out. He told me he wants to stay here and do whatever he wants..No more calls to me, no more explaining where he is..Also I think that OW ordered him another cell phone..he denies it but my snooping led me to find out that she did order a new phone. I don't understand how 2 days ago he seemed so sincere when he told me he no longer cared about the OW. So I told him he had to go..today..I forced him out actually..So he says he went to look at places..who knows if he did or if he was just with the OW. He said he found one potential place in Queens..40 mins away from his Daughters..I asked him why can't he get a place here on Long Island but he insists that he needs to save money on gas and be closer to work, I'm sure that the OW living in Queens has nothing to do with it..He is at work now and we just got off the phone..a 60 minute conversation that accomplished nothing..Lots of accusations and denials from him that he's no longer with her..But I just don't buy it.. I can't let him live here as a stranger. I want my husband back and I know he's not trying like he said he would. He tells me my husband is gone and to just get over it.. I know you probably think I'm selfish but i'm tired of looking for crumbs or any sign that he still cares when he makes it so obvious he doesn't love me anymore..this hurts so bad and when he's around I feel worse than when he's not. Who knows maybe i'll be stronger without him. I would love to hear from someone who's lived through something similar.