i am having lots of thoughts of "what I would like to do..." dont know how I am going to do them...but they are in my mind.
THINGS I WANT FOR ME IN 2008
I used to teach aerobics. not certified..want to get certified through our local YMCA. I liked teaching -- it is fulfilling plus you get a free Y membership.
I excercised almost every day for over 9 years...with working fulltime and this new life of being a single parent I dont like leaving d11 home alone (plus i dont trust h when it comes to lawyers as she is not legal to leave alone) ANYWHO..i know they are excuses...been here before. BUT I miss excercise....i want it back.
I want my LIFE back. Notice i didn't say H...I mean my life..my thoughts..I am tired of my thoughts being consumed with him or bimbo.. THIS ONE will be the biggest challenge...as it means really letting go.
I want to start taking a class here and there and work towards finishing SOMETHING. I have lots of college credit hours that add up to a bunch of nothing. My current job will pay for continuing ed...and I have found some classes I would liek to take...even though I have hodge pdoge hours I am thinking about finishing up my AA degree--accounting emphasis. THIs one is a work in progress but somethign i want.
I also realized today at work that i take blame alot..one of the guys said cagzmom listen--- you dont need to take the blame unless you are SURE it is really your fault...i realized today taht i always think things are my fault..WELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL it isn't always my fault..enoguh of that one!!!
and lastly....I may actually get to play on a coed softball team..taht would make me very very happy - i think---we will see if this pans out but i used to play and it was fun- i am old now but it could be fun
ok enough but it is nice to finalllllllllllllly have some thoughts of what i wold like
also want ot buy a house also want to get a newer car (mine has 210000 miles on it) also want to learn how to cook some new stuff
so fun having all these new thoguhts....
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
