MLC BS

[Patrick325]

I tried giving it over to God and things continued to get worse....so I felt that maybe God doesn't control everything, it helped to stop blaming Him. I am trying to ask Him to help me be strong and maybe for Him to help my W realize how important our M is. I still have good and bad days. Agood day is when I realize my kids and I will be OK and that I will find happiness again someday. A bad day is when I wonder why he is letting this happen to our family...sometimes it is impossible to imagine how I've gotten where I am today...Every night I go to bed and I feel like I am living the nightmare over and over...getting into bed by yourself after 17 years of marriage is so lonely....