Been a long time...

[seekpeaceofmind]

At times I see some of the person I loved,

ok - that would be a good place to start

at other times it is a completely different person who I absolutley loathe and detest

giant red flag

She has been friendly when it was convenient for her and it makes me wonder what has brought this about?

healthy skeptism or another red flag?

As far as the religion, it does turn my stomach when I think about it.

another red flag

she seems to be swayed by anyone she comes into contact with.

another red flag

It sounds great that she is being nicer to you now. For one thing, it is gratifying after the hurt you've had. It is also better for your D. But, do you really still love her? It doesn't sound like you respect her. . . . Only you know what is in your own heart and if there is any chance for reconciliation inside you. Even it that is what you still want it sounds like very teeny baby steps are in order to find out what there still is between you after all this time and damage to your R.