Don't worry W2G. You didn't "make" me cry. You just made me realize that obviously she was not interested and was not going to call. It hurts so much. I feel like crying as I type this.
She is not on vacation. I called her cell phone anyway. She did not want to talk to me which hurts so much. I don't understand why we can't even talk on the phone and be "friends."
Thanks for your words. I do appreciate them even if they make me cry.
I have recently realized how badly I screwed up. I deserve this treatment from her. She tried so hard to tell me that she felt smothered and even though I heard her and tried, I was unsuccessful in changing.
We "broke up" and got back together about 2 dozen times. Ridiculous. I always promised change and it just didn't happen. I realize now what a stupid fool I was. I had the most precious thing in the world and lost it. Yes, she had her faults, too and this might not have happened with a different person, but I knew what I had to do and didn't do it.
I really feel down because I am suddenly feeling "responsible" for my predicament. I have forgiven her and now I'm trying to forgive myself. It's not easy.
Oh well. As you all say, I'll be fine. I've been hurt before but this is the first time in my life I've felt this passionate about someone and been "dumped" and I HATE IT!!!!
