yes H4H - also if I am not very religious, I feel that praying is the only thing left - I'm not going to give up anyway, I'll keep working on myself, although today I am so depressed the only thing I feel is crying - I feel immensely lonely - the few friends and family I have are all far away - I made the huge mistake isolate me inside my family, and this gave me a double hit - first it took a toll on the family and then I'm left with nothing, alone. I am sorry my post are not very encouraging - I hope in the future I am going to be again the happy and goofy person I use to be. Maybe a miracle is going to change the direction but for now..........
