I just want to be honest with my feelings.

I am missing H and it doesn't make me weak or a lesser of a person.

I have a life, continue evolving and pretty happy for the most part.

I miss H. It is like someone died and there is no turning back.

Is this it for us? Everyone says this is who he is. He will not change.

The cycling has stopped and H is far far away.

We don't even say Hi or how are you?

See, I would like to say"How are you?"

It's not that I miss H as a husband but I miss him as a person.

H has not been in my life now for a long time. The longest since all this happened.

H sees D7 . Last week at the softball game H was there.

H seemed curious about me.

H even moved into my space. Jumped in on a conversation. , but is very distant.

We are not friends, we are not acquaintances we are nothing.

I have never had a relationship like this with anyone.

I just want one normal conversation.

Not as husband and wife but as two people.

I am not sad, depressed, lonely or wrong for feeling this way.

Just honest.