Hey Dar...first off you are in my prayers with your diagnosis. Sometimes though we can use things like that for good. It can draw us closer to God and others. Really your marriage needs to be on the back burner for now anyway....Let God handle it.
I also find myself coming here to post my negative thoughts most of the time, although I dont really get the replys to my negatism as bad as you do...but I have learned to try to post alot of positive things as well. I think what everyone here tries to get you to do is NOT think so negative even when you visit here....try to find some positive in the negative, you know?
So, have you told your H of your diagnosis? What has he said about it? How about your family?
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10