I think she's back

[Starshyne]

He is willing to tell me where he is going. I need to try to talk to him about keeping things a little better in line. I appreciated him telling me he was going to Walmart after his walk. However, I need him to take that a step further and tell me that he is still at Walmart an hour later or whatever the case is. The issue is that he has always felt like I have "mothered" him. Which I agree is an issue I have with him. I do treat him like a child for most of our marriage. I have been trying to stop that.

I am not ready to move back into the bedroom at this point. I am also not totally convienced that he isn't seeing someone else. My mind about that changes from moment to moment. He says that he got POed at me after I left a mean message on his voice mail about finding the receipt for the rose and he threw it away. This is possible, I guess.

I think that as a 180, I am going to live as if he ISN'T having an affair, although my guard is up in my mind. I am not going to call him if he is late and I am not going to scold him if I find "something" that doesn't add up. Not totally going dark, but being cool is what I am thinking.

Sara