Bring on the Rain

[SueS]

Hi everyone!!!!

Thanks so much for coming to my thread! You made my day. You really did. My day started out in the car on my way to work hearing Reba & Kenny Chesney's song - Every Other Weekend! Not what I wanted to hear. Then, over lunch it was a Rascal Flatts song about loving someone that doesn't love you. Yes, I feel pretty good about where I'm at right now, but it was just one of those mornings for me! I'm okay now though!!

I think part of the reason I was a bit down was because OW's H called me yesterday. Typically our conversations are okay but for some reason it just brought images into my mind that I've worked so hard to keep out. OW's H is desperately trying to hold on to his family. OW keeps giving him false hope by wavering on seeing a C, among other things. He said that he hopes that if she does move out that she'll see the light and come back. I had to be honest with him about them seeing each other. He was sure that they don't see each other often. I told him that I was sorry but that I knew that wasn't true. One example was on a Friday night my H went out. He came home and had left a receipt out on the table. OW's H mentioned that she'd been out that night with friends at a bar seeing a band that her friend plays in. I asked OW's H if the bar had Whiskey in it's name. He was silent. He said yes, the Whiskey Rack. I told him about the receipt. I don't want to throw all of this on him but he truly felt that they aren't seeing each other much. He told me that OW had been out until 2:45 am on Monday night/Tues. morning. I know H wasn't home at 12:30 am but I don't know what time he did get home. What a MESS!! I feel for OW's H, but told him that I am ready to be done. He said that he doesn't really understand how I can feel that way. I told him that he needs to understand that for me there are a lot of things that contributed to my feelings. The drinking, 2 (if not more) affairs, the selfishness, and the way that H has talked to me the past year. I asked him to please understand that it took me a very, very long time to get where I'm at. Admitting that my M is over was one of the hardest things I've had to do. There was a lot more said but I did mostly listening. I didn't tell him about seeing an article on the computer about living in a "blended family" that my H had been looking at.

Last night H was quiet. H made dinner for all of us and sat at the kitchen table with us. A very limited amount of interaction with D4 and then fell asleep on the couch. Not much else from him.

I started acquiring boxes so I can be prepared to move when the time comes. Other than my car payment, I have a little amount of debt. Little as it is though, it's many small items. I believe I've found a way to get most, if not all of it paid (other than the car) before I move. That will be a big weight off my shoulders.....and my credit!!

Well, it is a busy day at work. Have a great one everyone!

Oh...I had some good cuddle time with D4. We had thunder and rain last night!!

SueS