Totally Lost after 23 years

[CBK]

Thanks Lin,

You post helps and it sounds like you and H are working it out. I am so confused on what to do, when to do it, etc. I want there to be a book, and the posters have been telling me, but God do I want to tell W that I feel like I am financing her A right now (although it is emotional now...), I want to tell OMW so they can be in counseling. I won't do any of this, but I need to vent it out. I travel a lot for my work, and all's I want to do is be at home where I feel safe.

The good news is that my D20 and S19 come home on Thursday from college. That may make it better or worse. Just to have more in the house will be better.

It sounds like you had a roller coaster of a ride and I could learn a lot from you sitc. I almost left the house and moved to my parents (yes, at my age) when the bomb dropped, they live in North County SD. The one thing I have found on this site is an amazing amount of support and wake up calls. I am hoping a few will start to sink in.

I can't feel pitty for myself too much longer as it affects everything I do. I hear you on being careful, I actually have slowed down in my driving (I usually drive like a bat out hell) and trying to figure out my limits. Today is the first day in 4 weeks I ate lunch! I am happy about that!

Thanks Lin for the post.