Dar...what I think you are missing is the fact that no one really named called

they pointed out behaviors in you that have names

we see of you what you have shown

you don't like it...then change those things

you talk about all these changes you have made but your posts are the same as they were in the beginning

you crave attention

i know I can give it for so long and then I get pissed
get motivated
do something to change

just like resorting to telling people to check up on you on your thread

those people that read you and follow you will do so without the reminders

you need to do things to raise your self-esteem...then you won't need anyone else to tell you you have changed or you are doing well or what have you

you will just KNOW it

and

Jack can name me
it's cool

and if you believe that you are the only one people have come down on you need to check the archives...
or read beyond your own thread

reach a point in your life where you don't need or want people to feel sorry for you and THAT will be a sign you are on the right track