Two interesting R talks between H and I the last few days. I’ve been so afraid to bring up anything but both times, they just sort of happened.
Saturday night: I told him it seemed like we were really working on things between us, and “reconnecting” (which is his term). He said he didn’t see how that was going to fully happen until after his legal sitch is resolved. I said “it sure seemed like we had been making progress. I am imagining that? Or has it not been real?”
He sincerely replied that it has been real but what he meant is that he didn’t see a 100% reconnection until the legal sitch is resolved. I agreed to that.
The next night, OW was on the warpath. Kept calling and calling and calling. This went on for a couple hours. She says she’s going to sue, got the paperwork all ready to go. H has been desperately trying to keep her appeased, but I think he’s losing the war. Actually, if he left me and moved in with her, the war would be over, that’s what she wants.
The sitch really has me down lately – to the point that I was thinking that maybe I should just throw in the towel. The OW is such a nut case, and is so unpredictable, that I can see her causing issues for us years down the road. I don’t want to live like that. Then I start thinking about how he could ever get involved with such a person! It just blows me away!
H knew I was really upset over everything, which prompted another R talk, instigated by him. He said he was “eager for everything to be over, so we could get on with our lives, if that’s even what you want. Do you want to be with me after all this?”
I sat silent for a minute and replied ... “there are days when I am 100% sure that is what I want. But on other days, I’m not so sure just because I don’t know what’s going to happen (with the legal sitch) and until then, I can’t answer that. But I know you can’t answer that either right now.”
He said he guessed that was the best answer he could hope for at the moment.
