It is so odd. This is what I prayed and hoped for all while she was going, and now that it is possibly happening, I am wraught with indecision. At times I see some of the person I loved, at other times it is a completely different person who I absolutley loathe and detest (as far as not putting D first or hardly at all in her life while still partying it up).
MY mind goes into overdrive and drives me crazy every day, as it seems she has found that grass isnt greener. But I've always been there for her even when she was treating me like crap - at times for the posssibility of reconciling, but mostly to make D's life as stress free as possible. She has been friendly when it was convenient for her and it makes me wonder what has brought this about?
As far as the religion, it does turn my stomach when I think about it. Not because I am intollerant, but she seems to be swayed by anyone she comes into contact with. A good work friend got her into the witchcraft. When she started cheating it was a friend then co-worker who talked her into it (or at least swayed her to that side). She took on all of that persons beliefs at the time (looking at taking up bhudism).
Anyways, I turn my mind over and over (unintentionally most of the time) trying to figure her and things out, but its al just conjecture on my part as only she really knows.
thanks again everyone, look forward to hearing back
i'llsurvive,
This is a really tough one. It is another occasion for my crystal ball to look into the future...... Sorry, it is broken...
Here is my ten cents (2 cents is 10 cents due to inflation)....
You could sit back and see what happens. If she continues to pursue you, you could be open to it.... The good thing is you seem to still have feelings for her..... Maybe she has learned her lesson... The worst that could happen is does not work (again).......
HOWEVER, if you choose to NOT pursue it, you may be wondering 10, 20, 30 years down the road...... What if? That would be a terrible place to be in my humble opinion..... I would rather try again and have it blow up (again) IF I REALLY LOVED HER......
Before jumping into R, M or bed with her, I STRONGLY suggest you both go to couple's counseling........
I know this probably confused you a bit more than helped.... But, those are my thoughts right now...
Take Care,
RMG
Last edited by RMG; 04/22/0805:10 PM.
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