I would just like to suggest that those of us who are so inclined take a few moments to pray for Fish and his family. Obviously, he is a man going through an immense amount of pain and sees taking extreme and hurtful actions as the answer. It is hard to let yourself feel for awhile cuz it ain't pretty! Grief isn't easy. It is part of healing though and Fish is trying to bipass that to the detriment of himself and his family. I believe he's on the wrong track but will pray that he finds his way, for his and his family's sake.