Beauty is still holding on ths site and kids..

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Hi Joie~
1mph! Exactly.. I just want to run!! My emotional roller coaster is crazy! I am trying to stay calm but am about to lose the patiance. Things are going crazy last few days... So, my H called me Sunday and asked me to check his e-mail because he really needed the information right then. So I did. While I was looking for the infor, I found e-mail from OW. So, I read it.

It was a long e-mail but here is the summary."I love you,I want to move back to town so I can be with you. You are my soul mate, you are the perfect guy I dreamed. We will be great together. I want to be with you. You help me go through when my dad is very ill. I think about 10 yeas from now, we drink beer in the back yard, cooking lunch... I never thought about becoming step mom but I think about it alot. I bought a gift for ***(D7)"

She was desparate to hold on to him. She didn't ask him about his feeling, his sitation, any of that. She just said about her feeling how much they are meant to be together.


What do I think about it?? I was going crazy by the computer and was thinking about what do I tell H?? I am sooo mad! but I realized this is her illusion not real. I will not let my children have anything from her. If she ever become step-mom, I will move to anywhere far away from her. So, I just closed his e-mail and didn't say anything to H. I just gave him the information he was looking for.

We talked about 'us' later the day. I don't know how it came up. It didn't go anywhere. He gave me "I love you but I don't know if I want to be with you" statement. He also told me that he think about future with me and even dream about it.

I told him "I want to forgive you completely but as long as OW1 is in your life, my pain will continue. She is the ONLY cause of unhappiness of my life. Everthing else is great. You and me are doing well."

He said he tried to break up with her but it didn't go well. I am tryng to be calm..but still frustrated!
Beauty