How do you see details of his phone records? He pays his phone monthly and gets x amount of mintues for the month. I have never seen a list of phone numbers on his phone bill. I pay mine the same way only it is taken from my paypal account monthly. I have never seen a list of phone numbers on mine either.

Here is what went down last night...

I had a bad headache, so I went home and got straight into my bed. The tax refund had came in the mail. H comes home about a half hour later. He wants to get his half of the tax income because his bill for the classes he is taking is due. He comes in an talks to me about it. I was very brief and short. Right before he left I told him that I had contacted a lawyer about prices and hours. He said, "I really wish you'd wait on that." He looked really hurt.

I selpt a little longer and when I woke up I was feeling much better. H had left a note saying that after the bank, he was going to work out. I left and worked out myself.

When I got home, my half of the money was on the table. H called me and said that he was concerened when I wasn't home. I told him that I was feeling better and went to Curves. He said he was walking at the park and would be home soon.

So I messed around some with my new computer (which I LOVE...everything is 10 times faster!!!). Then I get the "Walmart" text message. When it got to be 10pm and he wasn't home, I totally lost it. Here is where I went downhill. I put some of his clothes in a paper bag and left it on the porch. I texted him saying that his clothes were on the porch and the doors are all locked. Then I broke down and wailed and bawled. H comes home shortly after this. I can hear him figuring out all of the locks on the door. He walks in holding the paper bag and says "You know you can't do this. Are you okay, Sara? I am really worried about you." I am crying and ranting and raving in an unknown language (hehe...I was crying that even I couldn't understand what I was saying). H explained that he was at Walmart and some other stores looking for a new mp3 player (he did his own laundry and washed his old one). He didn't mean for it to take so long, but he couldnt' find one he liked. He tells me that he knows he has lied to me in the past and I have no reason to believe him this time, but he swears there isn't another woman. He just hasn't felt like coming home and has been wanting to get out of the house. He is sorry that it upsets me so much.

He then bends down to me on the floor and says "it is going to be alright, Sara." To which I reply "I know. God loves me. It is going to be alright." And he says "Yeah, and I love you, Sara." He then asks me if I would move back into the bedroom with him. I tell him that I am not comfortable with that yet. He says that he understands but was hoping that I would move back in. He again swears that there isn't another woman and I am getting worked up for no real reason.

I dont' know what to think. It is possible that he just wants to get out of the house. Especially since the only thing I had said to him prior to this was about lawyers.

Back in December when I accusted him of being with another woman, he got really defensive. He wasn't like that at all this time.

Is there actually a chance that he is not with another woman and is starting to take small steps towards working on our marriage?

Sara


Me-31 H-38
M: 5 yrs T: 7 yrs
No kids
Went to Prostitutes 10-1-06
Found out about OW 12-24-07
Bomb on EA/PA: 1-2-08
OW ended it with H "for good" 3-8-08
OW is back 4-19-08
H and OW tell me that they are in love 5-19-08
Filed for divorce 6-5-08
Divorced 7-2-08