Well, it turns out that S won't be coming to visit this week because I forgot to look at my calendar when we scheduled it. I have non-stop workshops and meetings on Wednesday! So I will see him next week. But we have been having some nice phone conversations, which I really appreciate. It is interesting watching my children grow up...A mixed bouquet of stinging nettles and fragrant roses and sweet orange.
Yesterday I got a nice postcard from my friend who went to Ireland. That just reinforced my desire to go there. I would like to get a cottage or house and really stay for a month or more. Need to see about what is involved with that dream and what would be a good first step. How about getting my passport!
Spent some time thinking about my life yesterday. It was one of those introspective kinds of afternoons. With "dropping the rope" about CG I needed something else to occupy my mind...
So, remember the idea of the labyrinth? There is the edge and the center. The center is safe, and the edge could be dangerous, or it could just be change."The edge-nobody really knows where the edge is- because you find it by falling off" (Hunter S. Thompson paraphrased)
So I was thinking back to my wayward youth when I ran away from home at age 16 1/2. This was a radical "Jumping off the edge" into a completely new life. And then I realized that at the time, I had no choice really. I was pushed off the edge at the same time as I was jumping toward something new. And the other times in my life where I have made radical changes in my life. The thing that propels the change is often something that is extremely unpleasant...Like the whole D experience...
Balance is that place between the center and the edge. Some people are more comfortable closer to the center and others like flirting with the edge...
The center should be safe. It is so hard to stay there, tho. When walking a labyrinth, you do eventually get to the center. You can spend time there, in peace...but eventually you must move on.
Part of GAL is finding and getting to your center. What does it for you? For me, listening to music, yoga, hooping, walking the dog, reading, meditating, drawing and painting. These are all ways I can contact my center...if only for a short while.
Have a great Tuesday my friends. SG
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
