Hi na- You have to expect that you will have moments of frustration like this. It sounds like you are trying to find constructive ways to work through this one. Hopefully you have learned from all of this and DB will give you the tools to deal with these issues as they arise.
Also, I find sometimes when my H moves towards me I start to feel a little anger...for me I think it is just some unresolved resentment of him walking out on our M. If I get to where you are now, I am hoping that if I keep reminding myself how much I appreciate that my H is working on the M that I will work through things.
Give it time and patience...and expect that there will be ups and downs for awhile.
