Oh I understand that completely AB. I understand they've been there done that. I just don't feel the need for the names they've chosen to call me when some are also still angry themselves as they'd be able to see from reading some of the 'spew' they use on others' threads too.
Also, I was thinking about this board more last night and what I'm doing here and in my life. I post almost all the negative thoughts I have in my mind and that's it. This is a place I come to for venting, not for sharing my happiness. People here don't think I've moved forward. I can tell I have quite a bit. Maybe they don't see it since I post the negative and not the happiness I possess. No one else in my life sees me as a negative person at all, only here. I make people laugh daily here at work and home. People at work tell me I need to try stand-up comedy and seriously mean it.
I'm a great person and fun to be around. I'm enjoying my life more and more each day. I do more, play more, have more fun in general.
As far a H goes, he's a part of it when/if he wants to be. If he decides to call or email, great. If not, great. It's no longer a big deal to me.
Friends, I found out yesterday that I have uterine cancer. I'm not even all that concerned about it because I know it will be taken care of by Him. I'm sharing this with you so you can see for yourselves my real attitude and it just wasn't showing here.
