I do well for a couple of days, then I regress....... Then somehow I find more strength and do well for longer... Then I regress again
YES, it is that way! as you heal the moments when you do well will last longer, same as forgiving, I thought I forgave stbx for all the indignities he put me through the past months, I told C I thought I forgave him but still hurt thinking of them, he told me forgiveness is a process, you just can't forgive and stop hurting in the blink of an eye.
So allow the sad moments, reminding yourself ALL along that you are going through a grieving stage.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.