Still not in the best of moods today. Decided to go dark on my H for a while. I hate the fact that when Im down, he seems....up. I think he is messing around with the OW again. Sucks, but knew it would happen. Of course he says he isnt. Going dark will be a bit easy for a while. He will be gone for about a week on business. Tonight may be the last time I see him for a couple of weeks. He wont have the kids this weekend or on his night next week. Should be easy to avoid him. If I could just get away from the phone calls. Not answering is hard. Of course he would probably only want to talk to the kids.

He called this morning. Asked my D if I wanted to talk to him. I said no. He asked my D if I felt better. I said no.

Why am I doing this again? Why is it affecting me again? I just want to cry all the time. Last night I was back to laying in my bathroom floor in tears.

I dont think friendship with this man will happen.

Kissak

"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3
M-37 H-37
S-10, D-15
M- 1993
First bomb- 12/23/06
Came and went too MANY times!
Gone again 10-25-10