Totally Lost after 23 years

[CBK]

Thanks Steve - totally sucks. Like I said, glad I am alone right now. I respect your posts a great deal and your sitc as well. I don't know how you do it. My work colleagues are starting to ask what is wrong - losing 34 lbs in a month, not the usual "jovial" guy - I lead a very large group in my company, manning up has never been a problem, but dang, it is tough now.

I know I am a newbie still since the bomb dropped - so I know I need time to figure all this out in my mind. I will make some calls today before I get home to my support network, I am thankful for them as well.

You are correct about telling anybody, I won't, first, I promised, I know she gets really nervous about it, but I won't and I can't. The only thing that may take me there would be if D ever gets filed - but I will not go there mentally. I need to get to tonight mentally, then tomorrow morning, etc.

I am trying to be the M wife needs, trying to figure that one out, who am I - GAL, 180, etc.