Totally Lost after 23 years

[steve477]

I understand the desire to spread the news. You want to be vindicated, you want people to say `poor you, yes she is completely in the wrong`. I get it.

Dont tell your kids. You are planning to win your W back arent you? SO why spoil a childs impression of his mother, when we hope in 6 months there will have been no need to do so.

I know I don't want to beg, but holly molly, how do you not? How can I not tell her that she needs to open her heart back up? How can I not tell her that she has been the love of my life for the past 26 years? Even in our bad times, I have always loved her...

You cant tell her she needs to wake up and smell the coffee, she needs to smell it herself. How do you want this to go? You want her to want to be with you or be with you because she `should`.

Work on yourself! You can do it!

Right now, I am hurting. Looking at my wedding ring, knowing I took vows to love and cherrish, thick or thin, better or worse. Why don't those words mean ANYTHING to W?

What do thos words mean to you? This is one of those worse times? Now be the man your W needs!!!!

You are doing well, little by little... ok remember that


Steve