thanks ready2change! Great advice. I have to work today (totally don't feel like it, but I know it will take my mind off things). I actually work up today WITHOUT feeling like crying. Felt normal, almost. Of course I had to get D5 ready for school and that was "fun" lol -- but I don't feel horrendous, at least for this momemnt. I'm slowly coming out of a "fog" and coming into a place of acceptance. I'm realizing that db'ing is about ME and not "trying to get him back". At this point, after what he has done, not only to me but to d5, I'm not even sure how I feel,but I know feelings change and I WILL forgive him over time even if it's just the sake of our daughter.
The horrible feeeling is again, the little things, not having anyone say I love you, not having someone that you know you'll be watching tv with that night.
Acceptance, acceptance, acceptance. I can't stop him right now no matter what I do.
