Hi all, thanks for the responses, I forgot how awesome everyone on here is!!!
Since my posting it has been more of the same from her. She lingers around talking and even "wrestling" with D and I when she comes to get her, talks about "us" things in a joking manner, tonight she asked for a hug.
I keep playing it very low key, not confirming anything but not outright denying her or what she is saying. I guess I myself can't just come out and ask her because that hurt or possible rejection would kill me again. So I am seeing how things go.
It is so odd. This is what I prayed and hoped for all while she was going, and now that it is possibly happening, I am wraught with indecision. At times I see some of the person I loved, at other times it is a completely different person who I absolutley loathe and detest (as far as not putting D first or hardly at all in her life while still partying it up).
MY mind goes into overdrive and drives me crazy every day, as it seems she has found that grass isnt greener. But I've always been there for her even when she was treating me like crap - at times for the posssibility of reconciling, but mostly to make D's life as stress free as possible. She has been friendly when it was convenient for her and it makes me wonder what has brought this about?
As far as the religion, it does turn my stomach when I think about it. Not because I am intollerant, but she seems to be swayed by anyone she comes into contact with. A good work friend got her into the witchcraft. When she started cheating it was a friend then co-worker who talked her into it (or at least swayed her to that side). She took on all of that persons beliefs at the time (looking at taking up bhudism).
Anyways, I turn my mind over and over (unintentionally most of the time) trying to figure her and things out, but its al just conjecture on my part as only she really knows.
thanks again everyone, look forward to hearing back
