Had a great time. Weather sucked..... WINDY... I mean it seemed like 60 mph gusts.... But it was ok. Son and I spend most if our time in the camper. We did venture out side twice to make smores. And we went for a long hike... (Well to me it was long). Son and I talked allot. I asked him if he was having fun even though we spent most of the time in the camper. He said he had a great time and can't wait to do it again. He said the only thing that was annoying is his mom kept on calling us. (W called to check the weather to see if she should bring MIL out) and she called twice after that. I told him we should do this once a month. He said ok but if we skip a month then we will need to do it twice the next month... When I got home wife had re arraigned the pictures in the hall. Then she told me she found this one in a frame of my day and "If I wanted to put it up in MY new space". I keep forgetting to tell you all but me re arraigned MY side of the bedroom. WITHOUT asking W. I did this because I wanted to change things around for when I quit smoking thing will me "new". Anyway I said "New space?” She said "ya in the bedroom" I said sure... So I put it down on the bed and then went to unload the camper. When I came back in she had hung it up for me. I thanked her. Oh ya I forgot... SHE SLEPT IN MY BED LAST NIGHT. First time in 10 months. Now I was not there but still I can say she slept in my bed... Ok I need to go I am not having a good PMA day. Did not want to come back to reality. I am just getting more confused. I really can’t do anything until W gets a job because we are getting so indebt. Pay check to pay check with credit cards thrown in to pay for gas.... (Good time to quit smoking) 1 pack = 1 gallon of gas...
Might be back later Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I had a little re-enforcement from my son. (Who has never seen me smoke) When we were camping there was a noise out side and son looked out and said. "Oh it's just some guy smoking a stupid cigarette". Funny how we go along in life never really paying attention to words and then something happens and little words can set us off. For me... Washington, terry, Pictures, W saying "I'M fat". (Because she would never let me take pictures of her. (With or without clothes) because she always said she was too fat), the color pink. Now I have another word but this is more of a positive trigger... smoking... Ok so this morning on my way to work I am behind this big rig and it is Dark 3:30 am. And I see this piece of plastic fly off the truck. Ok no big deal THEN all of a sudden I am being bombarded with pieces if sheet rock... It was like one of those movies... I started swerving all over trying to avoid them. The big rig driver then pulled over. Not sure how he knew what has happening because it was dark. Maybe he just thought some nut was behind him and wanted to get out of the way... It's day number 3 on full dose of meds. These are supposed to be anti depressant but I sure have had allot of depressing thoughts going thru my head last night. I was even thinking how I felt I short changed my son's camping trip because of the weather. I felt bad I could not do more with him. Well need to get to work I check in later
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I'm glad you had a good time camping! Sounds like your S had a blast.
Good luck with quitting smoking this week. The price would be a good motivator for me...as well as what your S said It will probably take the meds a couple of weeks to kick in. Your depressing thoughts are probably due to the situation and not the meds.
I pray that your W will find a job soon.
By the way, I had the "make or break ultimatum talk" with my H last night. I had to do something. It went better than expected and he committed to working on things with me. When he first came back we didn't talk about what we were actually going to do to "work on thing" which I believe is what got us where we are now. We'll see how it goes. This is the last chance.
Smile today is the beginning of the rest of the week, and life is what you make it remember it's your choice to be sad or happy.
Hope that cheers you up! Im'e trying it on for size today cause I need it too.
Glad you had fun with your S and don't feel you or he got short changed as it sounds like time spent with you was great for both of you no matter what kind of weather you had.
What the horoscope today for us?
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
Capricorn December 22 - January 19 Do a little personal inventory of your life today and try to be objective about it. Sort through your friends, family, romance, and work goals to see what (or who) really needs your attention. It's very important to remove your emotions from the evaluation -- don't think about what you wish was working well, look at what is actually working well. And then look objectively at what is genuinely not working well. Start working on making that a bigger priority. You'll figure out how to make it better!
Sagittarius November 22 - December 21 Pay very close attention to your dreams right now - both the variety of images that your subconscious cooks up while you sleep, and the ones your conscious mind creates during the daytime. They may seem like fanciful ideas that don't relate much to your real life goals, but that is not necessarily the case. Look closer, and you will see that they are a sort of roadmap to get you from where you are now to where you want to be. The signs are there, you just need to slow down to see them.
Pisces February 19 - March 20 You've got a very good grasp on the emotional upheaval in your life right now, so do not worry about what is going to happen. Things might feel a bit dramatic right now, but give them time. Soon enough you will see a way out of it. There's a good way to get through whatever issues you and your circle are facing. You panicking will only get everyone else stirred up, which in turn will only exponentially increase the stress level. Relax. Have faith that things will work out -- because they will.
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I'll have you know I had the computer turned off and was ready for bed but ....
Ok Thank you Klm.. You are a real insperation. I have been off track the last couple of days. Wife has been real nice and it almost seemed like old times. ( without the sex) and that is what got me. I started thinking about the sex agian. (I swear prostitution shouldbe leagal). Anyway THAT IS NOT WHERE I AM AT... Wife has not even said she would work on our marriage and here I am wantingto sleep with her. I know I promised no R talk unti she finds a job.. BUT there has to be a limit. I think if no job is found by the end of May then IT"S TIME AGIAN.. for the "TALK". I think it is only fair. Heck I have waited over a year right??
Ok so tonight it was a little cold here. So W asked me to light the fire place. I did and a little while later W came into my "Office" (my little corner of the family room) and told me she turned on the portable heater in my bed room for me becasue it was cold in there. I told her she could keep me warm,,,,, Ok just kidding but I was thinking it. I have taken a full dose of the Wellbutrin (300mil) now for 3 days. I have been told to quit smoking after taking it for 2 weeks. I have a Q.S class on wednesday at 5:30.. we will see but money it tight right now anyway so...... Everyone have a great day and welcome YOYO.. I am dividing my time between the two boards.. But sometimes they talk too much about sex.... MAN.... I will tell ya one thing I do feel sorry for my W or the first woman I come into contact with when I let loose,,,,,
Bye husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
I told her she could keep me warm,,,,, Ok just kidding but I was thinking it.
Husband - Dr. Love... Why just think that?? I think you should come out and and say it.
"Those damn space heaters make me nervous. I'd rather you sleep next to me to keep me warm."
Nothing else said. No R talk. No further pursuit. Let her mull that over and come to you if she wants. Drop the flirtatious hints once in a while. Maybe because its been so long, she thinks you're not really interested. Throw a curve ball once in a while and see what happens.
Maybe because its been so long, she thinks you're not really interested. Throw a curve ball once in a while and see what happens.
Enjoy the week.
Ya know I sometimes think the same thing. But it's hard to over come my hesitation. I mean if you touch the burner of a stove three times and ya get burned. It makes ya a little worried to touch it a fourth time...
Every time in the past that I tried to test the waters she turned cold.... Anyway ya you are right I probably should have just said it...
Later DR Love husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
HFF has a good point flirt then walk away and let her think about it.
As CL says feel the fear and do it anyway!
You may not get the response you are hoping for but it's might be a baby step in the right direction even if it is a negative reaction. I like how HFF worded it.
Have a good day today.
Could you plese give the horoscope for Cap,Sag, Aries? You have me hooked on these.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
It will probably take the meds a couple of weeks to kick in. Your depressing thoughts are probably due to the situation and not the meds. 