You guys are so cute.. You make it sound like I'm on cloud nine!! I must come across much happier than I am.
I'm doing alright.. I've settled back into living in the house with just D2... although H has come over nearly every day since he moved back to the apartment on Tuesday..
Realistically I know that my H still cares for me.. he has always said so.. (although his actions used to say otherwise)... more recently his actions do seem moreso in agreement with him having positive feelings (whether they be "caring" or "loving") but it doesn't change the fact that he struggles with whether he can commit to our commitment. This is the part that seems to make him so unhappy. He said today that he doesn't want to lose D2 and I... that a big part of him wants to come home.. but he doesn't know if he can do the long haul.. he said that during the worst part of our sitch.. he knew that he would never commit to anyone.. because, and I quote, "if I couldn't commit and make it work with the person that was the best thing that ever happened to me.. then I can't be committed to anyone." So I said, "you really think I'm the best thing that ever happened to you?".. and he said "without question, I would never be where I am or who I am without your guidance and support.. and I wouldn't have our amazing little girl".
Pretty heavy conversation huh?
Anyway, had a good day with D2 today.. got her a new pair of running shoes.. turns out I had her in a size too small.. Oops! Also treated her to lunch at the Rainforest Cafe.. neither she nor I had ever been there.. when the thunder and lightening came the the elephants started making noise my poor D2 got SOOO scared.. it was super cute!!! She adjusted but was never completely comfortable! It was nice for me.. I like when I'm there to see her experience stuff for the first time!
