"Kerry-my immediate concerns and fears I think are pretty damn obvious...I am scared shitless of being ALONE. I have had my H with me since 16 and now at 35 don't. I honestly don't want to live alone without the companionship of a man. So if that makes me weak or lacking of self love or self respect as others may see it so be it."
That makes you human. Scared, confused, alone.. Yea I can get with you on that. This is the logical thing to do. I can see why you went this way. I can also see why the guy you are with went this way. This is a band-aid. Make no mistake about it. It is a temporary solution to your problem. In many ways.
"Hell his parents are paying for him to go out of the country on a 'gee poor Danny is so stressed and needs a break' trip with his current girlfriend and yes they know about the affiar and this current GF."
I can see alot of hurt and bitterness in this. I kinda suspect that you wish they had done this for you. In your time of need. Again I can feel you on this. Its hard for a man to ask his parents for help. We will always go back to what we know. This you have to chalk up to he was desperate. Just as you he is reaching out. The people picking up the slack are people close to him. I want to tell you don't take this personal. I know I am too late. This is the sh*t that comes from poor choices. He has made a ton of them too.
You have a lot of info coming your way... I am gonna try and keep the posts small. It is easier for me to reference.
Everybody.. Please don't post too much.. I have to go line by line. I don't even know if she is listening but I am going to continue on.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
