well guys, today is almost over he moved out today and I'm still breathing. I got work done, handled d5 well, drove my car, got dressed, met with friends,, cried a bit,but I also laughed.
When does the pain go away?? What if he MARRIES this girl?? Those are the thoughts that are in my head. I am feeling like I will be ok money-wise and such, but my heart hurts. Physically hurts.
I cried when I saw a box of Ramen Noodles that he left behind (he always took them to work). what is that???
I didn't call him today and only emailed him once about a bill he had to pay. I actually have no desire to call him. I really don't. He needds to feel the ramifications of what he is doing.
I need to heal. I need to GAL. I need to focus on me and my daughter. I just want that tape in my head on loop-mode to STOP!! I keep seeing his face. I keep remembering good times. When does this stop?? Maybe it really is for the best that he isn't here. I don't have to "overhear" conversations with ow. I don't have to tip-toe.
