I haven't posted to your thread before, but have been following your story closely as an object lesson in how not to DB. It is sad you've been separated as long as you have and are still stuck. It's been 3 mos. for me, and even though I backslide A LOT, I am beginning to make good progress. You seem to be caught in an endless loop.
Listen to the people here with a humble heart-- they are only trying to help you. They have been through hell with their Ss too, and know what has and hasn't worked for them.
