For the guys with kids and a WAW

[hopeful4her]

Never made it to church. I got everyone up, started on breadfast, and WW says she was going to let the kids skip church today as we all went to bed late. I then started to get ready to go by myself, but then I started watching Joel Osteen with WW and got caught up in his message. Talked about how things happen to us. In all circumstances, things actually aren't happening to us, they are happening for us. To make us stronger. To see us to another day. We both laid on our bed and I told her that I don't think I could beat todays message.
We got started on our day. Putting away laundry, cleaning house. I told WW that I had planned on going to Home Depot to buy materials to mend cedar fence. She said she wanted to also go to look at kennels for our 7 one month old puppies. Don't think I mentioned that before. I said cool. She said that she wanted to go and clean up her car, I said me too and and that we'll go afterwards. She cleaned hers, I cleaned mine. I did a little detailing on the inside of hers and mine. We got lunch situated and then we all left to go to the store.
At Home Depot, we ended up looking all around. Plants, flowers, lighting for outside of the house. Then we started looking at new cushions for the outside furiture. Got some prices. We commented at the ones we liked. She wanted a leaf blower. She said she would pay for it. At checkout, her card got declined. She had opened an account at the credit union she works for back in Feb. She never told me, but I know she is having $100 from each check deposited. I guess she didn't have the money so she put in on our joint account. I don't she know yet that I am now having my whole check sent to a different account now. Might be interesting when she finds out. We leave and she offers me some of a candy bar that she bought. She kept waiving it in my face and asking if I wanted some. I said no. She says, "Why, because I was buying them for everyone?" I said no, I'm just trying to stay away from candy. She asked one more time, so I grabbed it, took a chunk and gave it back. "That's what I thought" she laughed. At the Wallymart, again we are checking out the cushions. We decide the ones we like and I was going to say something about trying to keep them from the elements when we are not using them. I say," I like them, but...." and she says "But who is going to keep them?" She said it joking, with a smile. Again she says " Who's gonna get the patio furniture, you or me?" I smile like I can't believe she is joking like this, and I say "That stuff is both of ours" and I walk off, smiling. Strange. We decide on dinner, get home, watch a family movie together, get kids bathed and into bed. Again, a normal enjoyable family day for Sunday. Later, I ask her if she wants to watch the Max Lucado movie. She says yes, but falls asleep watching. As I have mentioned before, normal for her. Movie finishes, she goes to bathroom. I was hoping she would just fall asleep on the bed and I would just leave her. I am debating and debating in my head if I should ask her to stay. She comes out, and starts to leave and tells me goodnight. I call her and ask her if she would consider coming back to bed. She asks why? I say "Just." Again, she asks why. I say,"To sleep". She then says that she doesn't want to give me the wrong idea. I say "You don't" Really long pause. Uncomfortably long. It is dark in the room, but I can she her outline in the doorway. Finally, I say flippantly "Its up to you. I just wanted to offer." She tells me ok, and climbs into bed. I tell her goodnight, she tells me goodnight, and go sleep. I really don't sleep that well, because I'm excited. I can feel her feet touching mine. Not on purpose, of course, but still I feel good.
This morning, WW was in a really good mood. Normal morning routine. I have to gather kids into car and chase down the school bus, because it just passes the house. WW is lauging. I get back and bed is made and she is getting ready. After we both get ready, and some small talk I tell her to have a good day. She tells me to have a good one and I leave.
She is driving me nuts and part of it is my fault. I probably should not have asked her to sleep in the bed again, but it just came out. But she agreed. She knows she loves me. She is just addicted. As I think I have mentioned before, she has told me that even OM has told her that she will probably come back to me. I know she will. In our second to last blow up, she mentioned that we might get back together, just not right now.
I pray that it will be before it is too late.

This why I can be so all over the place.