Had a fantastic weekend. Caught some great bands on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. W would never have let me do that. Watched basketball with a friend on Saturday, and church on Sunday was great. They did the song that W requested in the night, and I got to find out who wrote it. "Peace" by Robbie Seay Band. Also got a lot of housework done. Not sure if W is coming tomorrow night, but I want to be ready.
Even after a great weekend, had trouble sleeping last night. Still a lot of negative thoughts and memories. Listened to "Peace" a few times and it helped.
Arrived at work this morning and found the following e-mail from W. She used a couple tax questions as an excuse:
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look up In God's Hands by nelly furtado and keith urban...it's gorgeous.
Then, a few minutes later:
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i just realized the song ends with the words "i want it back." i don't want what we had back, i want the dreams we had before we got married back. i'm sorry if i misled you.
I'm listening to the song now. Not sure how to respond, or if I even should. E-mails were sent at 1:30 AM, so I guess she's staying up late thinking about this stuff.
In God's Hands I looked at your face I saw that all the love had died I saw that we had forgotten to take the time I, I saw that you couldn't care less about what you do You couldn't care less about the lies You couldn't find the time to cry
We forgot about love We forgot about faith We forgot about trust We forgot about us
Now our love's floating out the window Our love's floating out the back door Our love's floating up in the sky in heaven Where it began back in God's hands
You said that you had said all that you had to say You said baby it's the end of the day And we gave a lot but it wasn't enough We got so tired that we just gave up
We didn't respect it We went and neglected it We didn't deserve it But I never expected this
Oh it didn't last It's a thing of the past No we didn't understand Oh just what we had Oh I want it back Just what we had Oh I want it back Oh just what we had
Me: 30 W: 28 T 8, M 6 S: 7-27-2007 W filed (again) 3-2011 Served 8-2011 Responded, now dark "I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear" MLK
