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[Mark1965]

Good Morning All,
Well What a weekend ?? G/F wanted the spouse of the(OM) and us to go out and G/F thought we could work out any issues -I might have with her and him. SO WE COULD ALL BE FRIENDS..I advised G/F, I didn't have a problem with other (S) She is good with me ?? Nice lady..Its him that I have a problem ..Well after we got together and she and I compared stories..His LIES , LIES and more lies were exposed than I could ever believe..She even admitted he lies when the truth fits better..She knew that..

Uhmm..Interesting.According to my G/F (OM)wife slapped the crap out of him at first sight of him (OM)... Funny -Worth a million a dollars - A real Kodak moment..He had no clue what was said or anything.. G/F got pissed with me -called me a [censored] stirrer.. I suggested we all go get something to eat with-out (OM)-G/F want to ride with (OM) and his wife ride with me.. I said -Hell no.. So I told(OM)-If my G/F gets in his truck - Then return her to HER house..HE HAD BETTER NOT BRING HER TO MY HOUSE.. So I left them all and together to work it out between them all.. (OM) and his wife left. G/F went back in and got somebody else to take her home to her house..

Other(S)wanted me to call her next day.. I told her I was busy .. But would call on Monday instead..Seems my G/F has going nuts all weekend and talking crap to me.. Like -Why don't I just a (R) with (OM) AND SHE WOULD JUST GET WITH HIM..WTH? Since I seem not to believe her or something?? I realize SHE is just trying to figure out what more information I might reveal..

So I been allowing my G/F and (OM)and the other(S)think their is more to story and stew on it from Saturday night..Wonder if the phone has been busy between them??


Next day : Sunday..
Yall,I am having problem with talking to G/F like crap..Its like she pushes my buttons about (OM) and I go just nuts..Is it her withdrawal from him(OM)?? It is like she is pissed with me -For even talking with other spouse? But it is what she wanted??
But when G/F pushed about him (OM)-I went stupid-just cussing and crap ?? Why ??She even now compared me to her 1st(H)- He has passed away now- But she always told me- He was abusive verbally to her.. Told me I wasn't worth all that crap..She got her clothes and left..So I went to her house.. Slept there with her.. Just sleep though.. But she got up this morning and started all over with (OM)and how mean I am with her..She has had it..But it has almost been like we can't leave this alone??

WHY ? WHY? IS THAT?? I have to get a grip with my G/F on this??

Monday:
G/F called this morning- Just hung up from phone.. I told her last night(Sunday) - Last year -I bought her a beautiful diamond necklace- She doesn't wear it.. I bought her a matching diamond ring - She no longer wears it.. Last year I placed my Shriner stickers and Masonic stickers on her truck -She took them off since the (OM) came into the picture..

But she says - She wants a man to pamper her and provide for her.. I told her -I provide the little things important to me and sense (OM)came into picture she no longer wears them or has them in public view..So if she doesn't wear it or use it..Why would I do more? But I am to pay for hair and nails and clothes or an out-building at her house-As a act of LOVE?? But If she would only show me some kinda sign -With the little things -The other would come -But when you don't wear this or that or allow your vehicle and you identified with me as a Lady OF A NOBLE with what is important to me?.. Then is it for Love or what you can get out of me for self gain..

G/F also wanted me to finish with other spouse this morning? I again told G/F..There is no more - G/F said (OM)said- His wife is OK - That I am just trying to stir stuff and cause them problems- He also told my G/F another lie-I just wish I could remember what it was.. She again said-She doesn't hardly talk to him any more??

I can only assume it the worry I have placed upon him - Is so strong - What is he trying to hide??? Let it die.. It has been a game - I wish I hadn't said that-I wonder if she called (OM) and told him -What I am doing.. I am certain...

I am going to call other (S) and figure something to say- See what his reaction has been with her?? I don't want to push them my G/F and (OM)together - Or bust up his (M)? But I want what I can't fix...It has to be between them But I want to try and figure something to see if he will tell on his self..My G/F is to smart - He is to young..She has been talking crap about him - He is to short and even how she would have to stoop down just to kiss him ..

Could it be that -I am just having trouble forgiving- I want to believe her.. She claims over and over -She hardly talks to him -But I swear - Having watched her -Her badgering me off and on all weekend about -What I more I might tell (OM) S..
I wish she would come clean 100% with me on this whole issue - She swears she has - But how we really ever know?

PLEASE RESPOND WITH EVERYONES FEEDBACK.. ESP before I continue to ruin my (R) ..



What do I do now?? Let her come and see if she comes back to me? She is the type that doesn't go back when done..

This makes me hate myself..