You guys are great. I have recently entered into the "watch what happens" stage. I gained control of myself and have been successfully DBing for about six weeks. Three weeks ago I got a hug from WAW. I was pretty stoked. I was sure at the time that that was the sign I had been waiting for. It wasn't. I haven't had a hug since. Even the almost accidental touches on the shoulder have cooled for now. I think she is just fighting her demons inside and they are desperately withholding affection. As if she is afraid that a positive sign might make it harder for her to reach her goal of finding what it is she is looking for. We have to see each other everyday when one of us shows up to take one of the two kids to school. Sometimes it is happy, kind WAW and sometimes it is angry WAW. I just maneuver around the WAW of the day with a smile. She doesn't talk about us, nor do I. She gets very excited to talk about the kids, so do I. She even planned a summer vacation for all of us but then cancelled it when she realized the logistics. The waiting is a hard part, but it's all hard. Our kids are good. We haven't brought them in too deep. I know many of you would suggest that I move on with my life, and that is how I am portraying myself, and I think it is working. I figure that eventually my heart will follow and I will be doing it for real. Maybe that will be the day my WAW gives me another sign. I sure could use another hug. Hang in there, and thanks.
ME41 WAW39 M14 SEP 11/07 ILYBNILWY d7,s4
Me 41 W 39 d7, s4 M 13 Bomb ILYBNILWY November 28th, 2007
