Gypsy, I see your point about my "he made me that way" statement. I guess I let myself become that. There were reasons that he was withholding. I have ownership in that too. I just really want to be the person I used to be. I really don't want to have to lean so hard on someone for my self worth. I am better than that. I want to show my kids that they are better than that.
Jen, I know that look of dread well. No empathy at all. I don't even know if there is pity. It is like a feeling of obligation I get from him. He acts like he has to deal with my crying fits because he is the one hurting me. That is the worst. He doesn't really try to comfort me most of the time. He just listens and says the same things over and over. I'm not in love with you, etc. Cheeseless tunnels. That is the big one for me. No more! I have been reading through my old thread today. I have mentioned going dark several times, but I have never actually done it. I have gone a day or two, but that is not enough. I really have to stick to this.
