Totally Lost after 23 years

[CBK]

Thanks all - I really appreciate the posts.

I am the CA Steve, keep falling back into cheeseless tunnels. I was actually pretty good last night. I was reading in bed, her door was closed. I am taking off for a trip, wanted to say goodnight and see you in a couple of days, but respected her space. Believe it or not, that was a huge step for me right now.

I agree about the MC, I want to know what our goals are and how do I ask if she is pro-marriage now that we have been meeting several times. I am thankful that we are in MC as it shows some effort, I just have to think more before I start to answer questions. That is the most difficult part.

I don't think I can get into too much trouble between now and Wednesday as I will be traveling! :-)

We both agreed that we would not tell our friends too much, I crossed the line a bit and sent them an email last night and asked his W that she just listen to my W and not cast any judgements. My buddy is a good friend and is part of my support group. They have no idea about the OM, just that I am working and WW wants out - that is where I crossed the line, getting them on my side. Lesson learned.

Right now, James Bond is not in his Tux or in his Austin Martin... Need to find him. Hour by hour...

I am not normally this weak, but this is taking an emotional toll as you all know. I keep telling myself there are no more tears to be shed... but there are and will be more.

Steve, I am getting better about the length of time... that is becoming a reality more and more. I try to ignore everything she is saying about where she is, but that is TOUGH.

Thanks again.