I have cried to him TOO many times. It doesn't get me anywhere. It is a cheeseless tunnel for me. His reaction is always the same "I am sorry. I just don't love you anymore. I am doing what I think is best." The cheeseless tunnel lesson is a pretty difficult one for me. I have just been hoping that THIS time he would really feel my pain and regret what he is doing. I am realizing that my behavior (the desperation) hasn't changed, so why should his. Today is day 1 of darkness. I saw him this morning after I dropped the kids off at school. I happened to pass by a job site that he was on. I felt a little pang of heartache, but I did not call him. I am giving him the distance he has so obviously been showing me he needs.
One good thing. I spoke to him a few days ago, and I asked him if he was still taking his time to make sure this is what he wants. He said "I'll put it this way, I'm not rushing to do anything right now." That was our last conversation, and I will see how the darkness affects him. Wish me luck. I think when I am tempted to contact him (which is a lot) I'll just post here instead.
