Wow. TY v Much Tia. Ego boosted for today then !!!
I would love to read the book all night every night, but as it's a 'secret' that is impossible while still living together. However, some time tonight, then will go to my mums Wednesday to hopefully finish it and start over doing the activities.
I had become a pessimistic person and this really hurts, but I certainly feel some of my old optimism is coming back and the old positive jokey person that I liked is there too. I still think we have a chance, we have 2 holidays coming up, but I stear totally clear of any R talk and any arguements.
I know my wife is doing some things to grate me as they are things I would have bitten at before, but think she is surprised by my reaction. I don't bite at all. She has started going OTT with swearing in front of the children and this morning I just calmly said 'Could you please not keep swearing in front of the children, it's not right and you are doing loads of late' and left it. There was no response, which I think usually there would be.
It's strange as I think I'm kind of winding her up by not being the person I was 4 weeks ago, she does not know how to react. Maybe the new me has installed some doubt and guilt in her, I don't know.
Anyway, as always, I'm not holding out too much hope for us, but I am confident about me. Fix me and hopefully wife will come back to me.
