I had a little re-enforcement from my son. (Who has never seen me smoke) When we were camping there was a noise out side and son looked out and said. "Oh it's just some guy smoking a stupid cigarette". Funny how we go along in life never really paying attention to words and then something happens and little words can set us off. For me... Washington, terry, Pictures, W saying "I'M fat". (Because she would never let me take pictures of her. (With or without clothes) because she always said she was too fat), the color pink. Now I have another word but this is more of a positive trigger... smoking... Ok so this morning on my way to work I am behind this big rig and it is Dark 3:30 am. And I see this piece of plastic fly off the truck. Ok no big deal THEN all of a sudden I am being bombarded with pieces if sheet rock... It was like one of those movies... I started swerving all over trying to avoid them. The big rig driver then pulled over. Not sure how he knew what has happening because it was dark. Maybe he just thought some nut was behind him and wanted to get out of the way... It's day number 3 on full dose of meds. These are supposed to be anti depressant but I sure have had allot of depressing thoughts going thru my head last night. I was even thinking how I felt I short changed my son's camping trip because of the weather. I felt bad I could not do more with him. Well need to get to work I check in later
Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
