well, he's leaving this morning. daughter doesn't really know (she's 5). I couldn't really sleep all last night. I swear to god what woke me up was the smell of his cologne and he wasn't even up yet (therefore, he didn't have cologne on!).
I feel a mix between wanting to throw up, cry, relief, sadness, hatred toward him at the moment and intense love toward him.
I just can't believe that I'm going to be a single mother. IF you would have told me this 3 months ago (this is how FAST this all came down -- bomb), I would have told you you were on crack. And he is acting like it no big deal -- you know, just moving on with his life. (and OW).
