Cagz is really moving ahead Wierd...

[seekpeaceofmind]

My dad defined it like this today-- He said I won't allow myself to believe in the promises in teh Word for my future. I told him he is right -- because I had thought those were for the marriage and life that i had. AND that is where I am stuck -- at least for now.

The hurt of loosing what I had is real and raw again. I WANT to be one of those women who looks up and says..."I am better than this, I deserve better-----and he lost not me.....

I am stuck there too - I guess we have plenty of company. I haven't been able to convince myself to let go of what I thought I had or the dream of a long, lasting M. Maybe it is something that will happen on its own when other things change and shift inside and make room for new thoughts, new dreams. That is what I hope will happen, anyway. . . . Now would be good! Two things I've learned while reading everything I can find for ideas how on to get unstuck:
1. Resistance will reinforce whatever it is that you are resisting.
2. While you are seeking, you will not find what you are looking for. (That one surprised me - I think it was in A New Earth, which I need to resume reading.)