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[seekpeaceofmind]

Really struggled with sadness this weekend. It was basically a lost weekend. I believe a lot of it is PMS which exaggerates my moods. A lot of times in our M, the mood that would come out and cause trouble was anger (hurt, frustration, whatever - it looked and acted like anger). The thing about the PMS is that the mood comes first - it isn't tied to thought. Usually, your thoughts create your moods, but this is the other way around. The mood is intense and I feel like I have little control over it while in the throes of it.

I have a demanding week ahead at work which starts with a meeting first thing this a.m., so I need to pull myself together. Came on here instead of reading as usual b/c my first impulse on waking up the last couple of days was to call H and ask him to please come home. I would never act on that urge, but it upsets me and so I will look for inspiration by seeing other's stories.