ND - Thanks for the thoughts on dating other women. I don't think I'll have too much compassion for anyone who wants to doubt my story. I've been truthful and that is how I'll remain.
Kerry - The lies hurt. They really do. It is so obvious to me that she is doing this to justify her involvement w/ OM. I'm pretty sure they're talking about their long-term futures together. In fact, D said today, "This isn't our permanent house. We'll be using the movers again soon for another apartment." I wonder if that means w/ OM. I can only hope not.
I think the one that hurt the most was from my MIL who responded to something sent from W and saying how proud she was of her for leaving me. MIL also sent another e-mail about anger and control and said "I read this and is summed up everything you said about (me)." It really hurt to read those words from her as I didn't have a close relationship w/ my mother, but I really enjoyed her and she looked at me as a son. I think it depressed me as well to think, how in the world can W ever recover from this? Is it possible?
I'm not shutting my heart by any means, but I just don't know if W will ever stop pointing the finger at me. I wasn't perfect, but I wasn't who she said I was either.
I can't sleep b/c of this, so I've taken some Ambien and I can only hope it knocks me out soon. I'm pretty down, but tomorrow is a new day. Going through my e-mails to counter all those falsehoods and being alone tonight have been a tough combination. I wasn't very productive as I'm down. Tonight would be a good night for many beers.
