journaling. Today, I spent the all day with my kids, W obviously spent the all day with OM - it has been VERY hard. In the afternoon the kids started fighting with each other and I got a bit overwhelmed, at one point I was just watching them fighting while big tears where coming out of my eyes, good thing I had big sunglasses. I thought what would WoNdErFuLMe do? So I said guys who wants to go on the carousel starts running after meeee. We all had few hours of relatively good mood. Anyway the all day I was thinking at W and OM - very damaging. I also got her car because I had to carry some stuff - and I looked in the GPS at the last destinations (I couldn't resist)- a Motel in SF (strange, the dude has a big house) and Carson City Nevada! I cannot figure out when she went there. Maybe she left in the morning and came back in the evening, I don't know. I hope they didn't get married there while divorce paper just started here. My immagination is running wild. Anyway W is speaking with me the very minimum. She is very cold - I have been very cold too, but I hoped she was going to say something, it didn't happen. In the last few days a big wall of ice grew between us. Very sad.
